I've definitely neglected this blog entirely. I'm a horrible blogger, I know. I'm going to try to get back in the swing of things and get back to writing. A lot has happened since my last entry and to go through it all would be quite a read. The last entry was March 3rd, and now it's over two months since then, so you can imagine that a lot happens in a few months.
Let me try to get you up to speed with what's going on in my life. For one, I'm very happy. I haven't been so happy in a very long time. And this is not to say that I've been 'sad', but there were times when I wish things would dramatically change, just as any one else would. There are a lot of things I would change with what's going on in my life, but these things are not upsetting me at all.
So for those of you who don't know me, or haven't quite caught wind, I quit my job in LA to move back to Orange County and work down here. I am also living with my mom, which sounds like a horrible thing and makes me seem like a slacker, but my mom is absolutely amazing, and I probably won't ever live with her again (unless she moves in with ME when we're all older ;) ) so I'm fully enjoying this moment while I get on my feet..or try to (I have zero knowledge on how to actually SAVE money). It was a pretty big move for me to leave the LA area but I needed to escape my evil boss and the job I had working for her. I REALLY need to write a book about my experiences working for this woman, but I'm afraid I'm not a very good writer. I was an assistant/sometimes nanny/weekend babysitter to a tv producer who shall remain nameless. When you hear horror stories about people in the industry, or if you have ever watched or read The Devil Wears Prada, that would be my ex-boss. Don't get me wrong, she had her moments where I actually really liked and admired her, especially in the beginning. But I have never cried so many times in a six-month period, and I definitely never deserved to be called some of the things I was called (ever had your boss call you the C word??), or felt the way I felt after being told those things. There were some perks, but money definitely wasn't one. I sacrificed a lot of who I was and a lot of relationships with friends because I literally was not myself any more, nor did I have any time to just be ME. And when I did have time off, I was still working; checking emails contantly for orders from her, answering her calls for the littlest shit. Like, getting a call to drive to her home to record a TV show since she was with her kids getting their nails done in Beverly Hills and wouldn't be back in time..Any time I complained I was shut up instantly, and I was never right, even when I was. I did not want to be a TV producer. So why did I stay? Well, I was working to live and thought I was stuck. I didn't want to move home because my life and my friends were there, and I didn't want to give up on a life I thought I was creating. I believed that this would just be another great experience on my resume. I also believed I would be making great connections, but the truth was everyone I talked to in the industry ( and not in the industry) really seemed to hate my boss..go figure.
When I received a call from a former boss that she had a job for me, it was like a call from Heaven. It was my opportunity for escape and I needed to get out. Unfortunately I had a lease on an apartment with a friend only two months in, but I paid for that apartment until the spot was filled two months later. I unfortunately lost that friend for numerous reasons including me leaving, but sometimes in life you have to think about yourself, and this one was one of those times. I think about my boss a lot and have nightmares about her all of the time. I was definitely traumatized. I keep getting that nervous feeling I had when I was working for her because it's around that time of the year when I started working for her and when the weather gets hot it reminds me of it all. June 1st, 2010 to be exact. But here I am, almost a year later and getting back to my old self.
So now back to more recent me..I joined Weight Watchers March 18th and I am down 15 lbs so far. I have a long way to go, but I'm working out with a personal trainer, eating healthier, cooking (who woulda thunk?!), and just being more concious of my lifestyle. It's not easy, and sometimes I would really just like to eat something really greasy but I have been feeling really good lately and I attribute that to being healthier. My psoriasis ( or whatever it is...still no proper diagnosis) is also dormant for now and I'm wearing sandals, and dresses, and not sweating my ass off in pants and shoes because I'm trying to hide it . It's very liberating!
So this turned out to be more of me talking about what has happened to me in the last 6 months as opposed to me catching you up to what's recently been going on, but I guess you can write about whatever the hell you want on a blog, right? Still turning tables, and have a lot more to turn but I'm on the right path. Until next time... Which will definitely be sooner rather than later... :)
And in honor of horrible bosses, a trailer for a movie coming out..about horrible bosses. Enjoy !
